headache

i was rereading some stuff i posted here this year and i noticed i wrote a little about the time earlier this year when i went to the clinic with a migraine and i was prescribed atarax because i told the doctor i was in therapy for my anxiety, even though i already know anxiety doesn't cause my migraines. anyway, when i wrote about atarax before i said i didn't like it because it made me sleep for a long time and when i woke up i felt disoriented and kind of numb almost.

i had a migraine last weekend and for the first time it wasn't so bad that i had to take any of the really strong shit i've been prescribed. the first time i got a migraine as an adult i was given promethazine for the nausea and bupap for the pain and i was unconscious for 16 hours. and butalbital has memory loss as a side effect, so it's hard for me to really remember what happened the other times i've had migraines. but last weekend i just took some excedrin and pepto-bismol and took a nap, and it wasn't fun but i was mostly okay. the next day i was still in some pain though and feeling generally awful, so i took an atarax, and i enjoyed it a lot this time. my head stopped hurting and i felt very relaxed and content. sorry, atarax, i misjudged you.

speaking of migraines, though, i wonder if marijuana helps with them at all? to be honest, if a doctor told me i could just smoke some meth next time i had a migraine and it would go away, i swear to god i'd do it. but it'd be good to be able to take something that doesn't make me sleep for a whole day and isn't expensive like going to the doctor is. i'm very interested to test this out, but i hope i never have the opportunity.