several things

1. they're building a dunkin donuts near where i go for therapy. it's about a mile from the offices and i'll drive right past it on the way. it looks like construction will be done pretty soon, so i'm really excited. i'm not excited for the good people at the psychological services center who'll have to watch me cram donuts in my mouth in the waiting room, though.
there's a child who's started coming in at the same time as me and i often see him in the waiting room. he's charming in that cheeky misbehaving child kind of way where you don't want to smile or laugh at him because you're only making it worse for his parents by encouraging him, but it's hard. he likes me because i have red hair and his female parental figure likes me because i once gave him a piece of taffy and he was chewing it the whole way home which kept him quiet in the car. anyway since he's there i'm not going to actually bring in donuts. i don't think he needs any more sugar.

2. i may be done with therapy? kind of? i'm not sure yet. some students recently started a group which is meant to help people with depression and/or anxiety cope with their feelings, or something like that. it might have been emotional regulation. i had a screening for the group this morning (to make sure i'm not a murderer, a drug addict, or actively suicidal. i don't know why they ask these questions. i think about killing myself at least a couple times a week but i'm not dumb enough to tell that to a mental health professional. COME ON) so i guess i'll be doing that in the next couple weeks. i also have to do the meds thing, so that's exciting.
the two grad students running the group said they were glad to have me because i seemed so enthusiastic. that makes me happy.

3. last night i got actually drunk for the first time, which was exciting. what i drank was a rum and coke and then either 2 or 3 bourbon and cokes. it was fun, i was dizzy and maudlin and everything. my best friend was there and he was trying to teach me how to flirt but he was drunk too so his advice was lousy. earlier today he texted me and told me that what he should have said last night was that the way to indicate romantic interest in someone if you're shy is just to ask if they're seeing anyone because apparently this is a magic question that normal people interpret as an expression of interest. i never would have guessed this because i have asked this question to many people without intending to flirt with them at all. i just really love hearing about other people's happy romantic relationships. also sometimes i ask people this to find out if they're gay, not necessarily because i want to date them but because i have this idea that all queer people are nice and should be my friend. i think this even though i know queer people who are really terrible.
my friend also says that there's a certain kind of tone and body language you can use when you ask people this question that definitely makes it flirting but i don't know what that means.

isn't it weird that in most things, like driving and cooking and writing and math and coding and nutrition and drawing and managing personal finances, it's totally normal to not know how to do these things and find or hire a person who is really good at a thing and ask or pay them to teach you to do it, but with social skills, the only people who do that are creepy pick up artists with dumb names and dumber hats?