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recently, it's come to my attention that the person i like is...kind of dumb.

i was under the impression that he was just your garden variety intellectually insecure man who pretends to hold contrary positions because he likes to argue them and show off how smart he (thinks he) is. those dudes are annoying but reformable, if they aren't assholes. mostly they grow out of it or someone points it out to them a few times and after a while they realize that being curious and open to learning new things makes you come off as intelligent and interesting while arguing with everyone about everything and persisting even when you're wrong makes you come off as dumb and a jerk.

but i think the person i like is actually just kind of dumb. i think he really believes the stupid things he says, and i think he thinks that because he has a degree it means has the authority to make definitive statements about things he doesn't know anything about. or, well, he uses his degree to shut other people up when he's wrong. he thinks he has the authority to make definitive statements about things he doesn't know anything about because he's a straight white man.

the tragedy is that knowing how dumb he is doesn't make me want to sleep with him any less. it just makes me want to bring a gag of some kind. i'm glad that i don't actually want to date him anymore but come on, body, get on the same page as my brain with this. he's terrible! you'll regret it forever! be reasonable!


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