cheating

sometimes, i think i'd like to see people. i thought about going to church tomorrow, for example, just to spend some time with some nice people and sing some songs and so on. but there's this weird...i don't know how to explain it. i want to be with people, but at the same time i don't think i could stand it. i don't even know what i think would happen. i'd explode maybe?

i think the worst thing about depression is how it makes you hate everything that could make you feel better.