prettiest

sunday i had lunch with the person i like, and i discovered that i still like him. of course. oh well.

monday my friend G was sick, so i brought her dinner and orange juice and chocolate and we hung out and watched movies. i made her watch white chicks and then airplane! because i am a good friend. it was fun. G is very different from me. when i'm unhappy or sick or whatever, i always want to stay home and be left alone. when she's upset she likes to have people around her because it cheers her up. so i have to be there for her a lot but it's okay because i've been feeling pretty good lately so it doesn't cost many spoons for me to spend a bunch of time with her.
also, i asked the person i like if he wanted to go out with me and G on wednesday. he said yes but asked if he could bring his girlfriend. i said yes because, well, he can bring her wherever he wants and i can't stop her from coming to a public bar. but i was distressed about it.

tuesday i bought more makeup. i bought 3 lipsticks and an eyeliner brush because on monday i got G to show me how to do black eyeliner (i usually use glitter or colorful eyeliner) properly and she said using a brush softens the lines and makes it easier to get the shape you want. the lipsticks i got are a dark red, a really bright coral, and a bright purple. i like them a lot.
that night we went out and had an okay time. i asked G to invite a girl, T, who i met last week and wanted to be friends with. T has a big crush on G, so she thought G was asking her on a date or something and freaked out a little. but it was nice talking to her anyway.

today (wednesday) was good too. on monday i lost my mascara but i found it again today and also i found my mermaids against misogyny button. i got really dressed up, and right before i left the house, the person i like told me that his girlfriend wouldn't be able to come after all.
we went out to dinner, and it was fun when it was just me and G, but when T got there she was unhappy, i guess, and she just kept being super negative about everything and it was less fun for everyone. she did this all night but i didn't care since i was just talking to the person i like until i had to take him home. when i returned to the bar T told me i was being mean to her and hurting her feelings. i said i wasn't really, she was just being a downer and we were at the bar to have a good time and if she wasn't having fun it was okay if she went home but if she wanted to stay she should relax and try to have fun with us. i wasn't trying to be mean to her, but she kept saying things that invited other people to sort of coddle her - this is hard to explain, but think of people who tell you things like, "i know nobody likes me", intending for you to respond with something like, "oh, don't say that, i like you!" - and G and i just refused to give her the response she wanted. for example, she said she wanted to leave because her ex was texting her and i guess it made her sad or something, and instead of asking her to stay, i said, "oh, that sucks. well, have a good night, let's hang out again soon." it was like that all night.
also she keeps telling random people that she has a crush on G, so now everybody knows. it's really very unpleasant. G says she'll talk to T tomorrow.

anyway, back to me. so i had a really good time talking to the person i like tonight. he said twice that i looked nice and when i pointed out the person i asked out a while back, he said, "i'm going to fight that guy. he looks like a jerk." he's right.

i think i'm going to see him again tomorrow but i don't remember. i'm really tired. the clothes i ordered will be here tomorrow so i'll get to wear something new, so that's neat.