red eyes

yesterday G and i went out and after we had dinner we went shopping for makeup. as i was passing one of the mirrors in belk i noticed that my eyes were very very red, and then it came to my attention that they kind of hurt, too. i was worried it might be allergies or a cold or cancer but it turns out it's just because of the cheap eyeliner i was wearing. i bought cheap eyeliner on purpose because i wasn't sure if i liked wearing black eyeliner and i wanted to get good at it and form a stronger opinion about it before i spent a bunch of money. i do like it, and i'm okay at putting it on, but it takes a while and in my opinion i look a little too severe.

so i got a different eyeliner, which is a nicer brand. instead of liquid, this one is more of a marker type of thing. it's easier to apply and draw thinner lines with it. it also is dark brown rather than black, so it looks less intense. also, it probably will not make me look like i've been chopping onions all afternoon. so that is nice.

i had lunch with the person i like yesterday and that was fine. i told him that i went to the movies with G on sunday and when we were discussing the movie i mentioned that i thought some character was cute. the person i like pulled out his phone to see who i was talking about, but then spent a few minutes showing me pictures of this person and saying things like, "really? you like him? he looks like a douche. look, he's so ugly. i bet he's a jerk. i guess he looks okay in this one, but really?" i told G this and she said he sounds jealous. i guess. the last time i pointed out a guy i think is attractive, he said he wanted to fight this guy because he looked like a jerk. i wonder if this is a big brother kind of thing or what.

anyway i'm seeing him again tomorrow. i'm excited because i'm wearing a dress i got a while ago that i really like but have only worn once. the reason i'm so excited is that i recently bought a cardigan that goes well with this dress, and also i have a belt for this dress now. although G says it looks fine without it. G is bigger than me and sometimes she'll say that i'm small or not fat or that i have a little waist and that's why i look good in things she doesn't. it is very hard to get used to.