january

i talked to the person i like about the guy i met at the bar a couple weeks ago. he knew who i was talking about and agreed that he's cool and smart and attractive and just generally awesome. i told him that i wasn't sure if he was flirting with me, and the person i like said he'd ask him about me and see what he said. he says he thinks he probably was flirting, because he mentioned to me that he wanted to dance, but he wasn't going to because he was nervous, but he would dance if someone would come with him. when i told him i didn't dance either, he said he didn't really want to because he wasn't a good dancer. anyway the person i like said he was trying to ask me to dance with him. i could see that.

tomorrow i'm supposed to be doing karaoke with the person i like and his girlfriend. luckily, i have a cold, so i have a good excuse not to sing, and to leave early if i want. i don't think i'll want to leave early but like, i don't go around locking fire exits just because i'm pretty sure there won't be a fire, you know? i think i'm supposed to go to something else on sunday but obviously i've already forgotten.

anyway, aside from being sick, i'm okay. i think it's funny that when i have a cold i turn into a big whiny baby and i beg for attention and get other people to do things for me and ask them sadly if they think i'll die, but when i'm really depressed i say i'm fine and never talk about it. it's weird. i don't know.