so rude

last saturday i got to spend the day with the person i like. we went to a lecture on post-feminist pop that was really good. we wanted to talk to the speaker but we didn't have time because i had to move my car before the meter ran out. after that we had lunch and then we went shopping for snacks for a party he invited me to. (just as an aside, going to parties as an adult is so weird, because most of the time i wasn't even invited, but no one ever seems to mind. i always feel like i'm being rude.) he bought hummus and beer; i bought wine and cupcakes. we stopped by a coffee shop so he could do some work stuff real quick. there was a cute girl at the table beside us, and i thought about saying hi to her, but i was too nervous, so i didn't. i might go there again and see if she's there and then i will say hello to her...maybe.

anyway, so we went to the party, which was at the home of a mutual friend. this is the girl i sat next to at the person i like's birthday thing. the reason for the party was that her friend was getting divorced. i think that's a fine reason to have a party, but the friend himself seemed ambivalent about it. i asked him whether he was really upset about the divorce and if i should say something nice, and he said, "no, it's fine," but i couldn't tell if he was serious.

at some point during the evening one of the party host's neighbors called the police and said my car was blocking his house, which it certainly was not, and it got towed. we were able to stop the guy driving the truck before he left with my car, and then the person i like and the party host went to an atm and got the $125 to get my car back right away. also i have to pay $20 for the parking ticket. i asked the party host about paying her back and she insisted that i didn't have to worry about it, but i don't feel like that's correct, so the next day i bought some nice note cards, and i plan to write her a short thank you note and mail it plus a check on monday. i don't know her very well so i'm concerned that she'll think i was mooching or something if i don't at least try to pay her back.

also, there's this. there were a couple times during the party, and actually back at the person i like's birthday thing, when i thought she might be flirting with me, but i really couldn't tell. i'm not sure how i feel about it, to be honest, so i'm glad i decided to write her a nice note in case i figure out how i feel about that at some point.

of course, i haven't actually written the note yet. i'm afraid i'll write it and mail it to her and she'll read it and laugh at me and then hate me, maybe because i wrote the check wrong or something. she has facebook and i don't, so maybe she'll even post it there so lots of people i know and like can see it and laugh at me also. i think this might be irrational, but still. i'm not sure if being made fun of is worse than being unintentionally rude to someone i like, though, so i will write the note anyway.