easter

i spent all of easter being social, so that was nice. i went to church in the morning and that was fun. i ran into someone i went to middle school with - she's a couple years older than me and she was there with her fiancee. she told me they were trying to make a tradition out of coming to this church every sunday because they liked it a lot here, which means i'll get to see them a lot probably. i'm really glad she's engaged and happy because she's a great person. also, she's really pretty, and her fiancee is equally pretty. i hope they get married soon so i can cry over their wedding pictures. i want to get married too someday.

after that i went to a potluck at the lgbt center. i was introduced to a group of really friendly people who asked me lots of questions and stuff. one of them invited me to a group for lgbt women, which is cool because i've seen that group on meetup before, but the name implies that it's only for lesbians so i never looked further into it. i'm going to go to their next meeting if i can. a different person invited me to a group for trans people and allies, so i want to go to that also.

there was a woman sitting across the table from me when i was talking to other people, and she didn't say much, but when everyone else started to leave, she talked to me about how her parents are very abusive and she has to live with them and doesn't feel like she can leave even though she must be at least 30 and she's in therapy but she's in love with her therapist and just all this other really personal stuff. i listened for a while and tried to give her advice, and then i went inside to throw away my plate and there were people cleaning up in the kitchen, so i offered to help, and then the woman went away for a while. but she came back and said something else about not being able to move out on her own, and another lady who i was helping with the dishes overheard and said she was a social worker, so they went into the library to talk privately. i don't know what happened to the woman after that, but i hope she was able to get some help.

anyway, so i washed the rest of the dishes by myself, and then the social worker lady said she was getting stuff ready for the lgbt youth group, so i helped with that. they were decorating easter eggs so we boiled some eggs and also i learned how to blow the yolk and stuff out of an egg so you can decorate the shell. it's gross and wonderful. i mentioned to the woman that i used to be in the youth group, and she said she wanted to ask me about it, and i said okay. then she asked what high school i went to, and i told her, and she said the other group facilitator went to the same school, and asked if i knew her. i said i did, so she said i should stay and say hello to her. so i did that, but it was weird because she seemed to think we were friends, which is not true. we knew the same people but i never liked her very much, so it was uncomfortable for me when she pretended like we had been good friends. anyway, after that i went home and had dinner and went to bed.

i think i want to keep doing more community type things that don't involve the person i like. i want to have my own stuff going on so i don't rely on him so much for interaction. although i'm supposed to see him thursday. i wonder what will happen then.