sunday best day

today i went to church again and the sermon was really good. it was about learning to let go of things instead of trying to cling or lying to yourself about what's happening. (like saying you're going to keep in touch with someone who's moving away when you have no intention of doing that but it's easier to promise you'll come visit than to say, "you mean a lot to me, and i'm sad that you're going away.") it made me think a lot about things. after that there was what they called an opportunity fair, where all the church organizations set up little booths so people could learn about them. if you signed up for something you got a raffle ticket to win a cake.

i signed up for three things. the first was the choir. i was in choir for a long time growing up and it was so important to me and i miss it a lot, so that's why i signed up. the thing about this choir though is that they're not very good. the reason they aren't good is because instead of having rehearsal they just show up at church early and learn the song then. we're supposed to sing next sunday so i'll do that, but i may quit afterward. the idea of performing with a lousy choir distresses me too much.
the second thing was the social action committee. they do volunteer stuff in the community. also, they are very organized. i know this because i got an email from them about their upcoming events before i even got home today. the next thing they're doing is an awareness and fundraising walk for mental illness. of course i think that's very cool.
the third thing is the young adult group. they didn't have a booth but when i was signing up for the choir the lady asked me how old i was and invited me to that too. i'm looking forward to possibly making some new friends.

after all that we went to lunch which was fine. i mentioned that i was going to sephora afterward and one of the ladies at my table asked if she could come too and i said yes so she rode with me to the mall. also, she gave me a thing of primer that she had and said she wasn't going to use.

this lady is interesting. she used to be a union organizer but then she got too sick to keep working. she did things like breaking into dumpsters to look for documents to show that pharmacies weren't properly discarding people's health information. also she's a sex worker and has been since she was 13. she told me a lot about this, more than you'd normally tell someone you just met. i had the thought that she was lying or exaggerating some of the things she told me, but i think being rude is much worse than being gullible, and her stories were good even if they were made up, so i listened.

anyway we went to sephora. someone i know works there. i don't know him very well but i always remember him because he's one of those supernaturally charming people who practically everyone is in love with. i told him he looked good and he said, "no, i look like shit today! i didn't even shower or anything." i told him he should stop skewing expectations for the rest of us and he thought that was funny.
the reason i went to sephora is that i want a new primer. i've been using an e.l.f. one, and it's the only one i've tried, and i really like it, but my skin is sort of oily and i want something to help with that, since i don't use powder or anything else that would cut down on the shine. so i got two samples of mattifying primer and i bought a third kind. i'm excited to try them all out. i also got two kinds of mascara (one is they're real by benefit, which is the one i normally use; the other is a sephora thing which was only $5) and an eyeliner pencil (i'm going to try under eye eyeliner). after that i bought two flower crowns from a different store because i can wear those and other fun hair things now!

i don't think i've mentioned my braids yet so i will now. a few weeks ago i got them done by my mom's friend and coworker. it took 6 hours over 2 days. my braids are long, like down my back long, and they are pink and black. it looks extremely cool. i washed my hair last night though and it was the worst fucking thing. when my hair was long, before i cut it all off, my mom always washed it for me, so i had to figure out how to do that and it was a struggle. i also learned that i don't know how to operate a hair dryer properly because i normally towel dry my hair and then let it air out. i ran that fucking hair dryer for at least half an hour and still didn't get my hair all the way dry. i don't even know if that's normal. but anyway, that's why i can wear hats and headbands and stuff now. it took me a while to get used to the braids but now i love them so much. i have to get them out in a couple weeks though because it's not good for your hair to leave them in so long. i figure i'll wear my hair short for summer and go back to braids in the fall. next time i want to get them in purple and teal, like a mermaid. i'm very excited.

anyway i'm really glad i went out today. i think i might go out again this week since i have so much pretty new makeup to try out. i will look so cute.