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college has gotten much better and i'm actually having a lot of fun. i made a friend who's in two of the same clubs as me plus one of the lunch discussion groups. we have a creepy amount in common and she talked to her professor about having me help with some of her research. i'm pretty excited about that and i plan to try to meet up with that professor next week. i've also befriended one of my professors; i think he and i are close in age, so it doesn't seem weird. i asked him for advice about whether or not i should help with the research i mentioned and he was really helpful and said i could email him if i needed more advice or had any questions. even my sex roles professor, who i hate, has been useful - i've become friendly with many of my classmates because they hate her too. we sit in the back row and exchange meaningful looks and comments about the things she says. i feel like i'm having the real college experience and i'm enjoying it a lot.

tomorrow my best friend has said he wants to get a group of us together to go for drinks. one of these people is the person i like. i don't know for sure that they'll be there, but it's a possibility and i'm excited.

the youth group seems to have imploded. i haven't heard from A in a week and today i got an email from the lady who coordinates the youth group's activities (sort of - her job is to make sure we have the resources to do stuff and keep the board informed about what we're doing) saying that A and D have left the church and asking what the rest of us wanted to do with the group going forward. i considered just bailing, but some of the board members who got the email replied saying they really wanted the group to keep going, and one of the group members who i've never met responded to. i ended up offering to run the discussion meetings on sundays. we're all supposed to meet up this sunday to talk about what's going to happen now. i guess we'll see.