twist ending

i didn't end up going to the show tuesday. i was gonna, but i was just feeling too pukey. and then i felt guilty and bad and stuff for not going because when the person i like told me about it i was so excited and i told them how much i wanted to see it and then i just. did not. plus my best friend decided not to go since i wasn't going, so i couldn't even ask him to explain why i wasn't there.

so i was kind of bummed about that, and then i kept being sick, and i had two exams this week and i have two more to study for next week. (i think i did okay on my deviant behavior exam, but i totally fucked up the first half of my stats exam because i forgot what standard deviation means. i still don't really know. i'm so sorry.) i was doing this thing where i only went to classes where i had exams, and then i went back home to take cold medicine and pass out.

by yesterday i was starting to feel a little better. when i got up i was thinking that maybe i'd dress up a little more than usual and maybe it'd cheer me up. after class i hung around on campus, because i had an event to go to at 6. i was just sitting around reading on my phone and flipping through the paper, so i decided to do my makeup just because i was bored. around 5:45 i started walking to the event since i had nothing else to do anyway.

and then! i nearly ran right into the person i like. they were on their way to class, so i walked with them and we talked. when they got to their class, they said they wanted to talk to me more, and so now i have their phone number, and at some point i will text them to hang out. i guess. if i ever calm down. which i will not ever. so. moving on.

tomorrow i'm going to a festival with the first friend i have made in college. it should be a fun time. i bought new tights tonight in preparation. my old tights have holes in them, which is mostly fine because i like them that way also, but they're starting to get worn out. i'd also like to buy some colorful flannel shirts and sweaters soon since the weather is starting to cool off.

i'm sorry. it's just hard for me to talk about things besides how excited i am. i'll try to write some more tomorrow maybe.