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i bought a new dress today. it's another a-line dress, like all of my dresses, and it's dark blue and has little red and white hearts on it. it has a bow cut out on the back. forever 21 sells another dress just like it but with foxes instead of hearts and i'm going to get that one too soon.

this weekend i'm housesitting for my friend who is going out of town. i have to feed and walk her dog, which is not really that much work. i only have to walk him around the yard and i don't even have to clean up after him. i'm supposed to spend the night to keep him company but my friend has netflix and hulu and a laptop i can borrow so it's not really work at all. i'm getting paid though which is awesome. i would have housesat for free, but my mom says i'm not allowed to tell people that after they offer to pay me.

tomorrow i'm going to hang out with the girl i like's roommate. not the one she's dating but the other one. i actually like her a lot. she has a cute face with chubby cheeks and she wears high waisted shorts a lot. (i've been told they would look good on me, and i want them to, because i like my hips to look wider and when i see high waisted shorts on other people they seem to have that effect. but when i wear shorts somehow they just flatten out my butt. i don't know what i'm doing wrong.) anyway i'm helping her put up some flyers tomorrow and then we're having coffee.

i have a lot of feelings about maybe being her friend...i like her as a person but i feel like her living situation, with the girl i like and her partner, is very weird. i want to ask more about this tomorrow. i also do not ever want to be invited to their house, but i feel like it's inevitable. also also, this city. i love it a lot but it's so small and everyone's always up in each other's business. that social group in particular has lots of drama and stuff going on and i don't want to be involved. i want to hear extensive details about it from the outside, but that's all. honestly when i talk to people who are part of that group it makes me want to like import a girlfriend from another state who's never met anyone i know. of course, the shipping costs would be astronomical. i guess i could use that housesitting money.


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