drain

i think i mentioned that i made a tumblr recently but i don't remember. anyway, here's a secret about that: there's an harmless, non-sexual thing that i really like reblogging pictures of, and i never talk about it on tumblr or anywhere else and i especially don't leave creepy comments on pictures of the thing, but secretly i do kind of enjoy it in a sexual way. i feel a little weird about it.

i did do another face mask yesterday but i was really disappointed. the one i used was the brightening mask, but i didn't realize it wasn't a sheet mask because i can't read or something, i don't know. i also didn't realize how much product was in the package. it's actually good that there's enough stuff in there for 2 masks, but since i didn't realize that yesterday i just put way too much on my face. it didn't make me feel relaxed or anything and it took forever to rinse off and some of it got in my hair and i don't know if it even did anything for my skin. the worst part is, the other 3 masks i still have also aren't sheet masks. i might use them anyway but it's super annoying. i think tomorrow i'll get some more at the beauty supply store. i hope they're as cheap as the $1 ones i've been getting at forever 21 (well, the first one i got cost $2.90). i want to spend the next few days shut up in my house sleeping and doing face masks and not talking to anyone and especially not listening to or caring about their feelings or problems.

earlier today i woke up around noon, hungry and tired and probably a little hungover, and got dressed so i could get breakfast. my mom had a friend visiting and he wanted to talk to me and i had to because his car was blocking me in the driveway and i couldn't leave until he left. he asked if i was married (??) and went on about some other bullshit i wasn't listening to and i was surprised by how little interest i had in smiling and pretending to care about what he was talking about. i think i just kind of sighed and stared past him and said "okay" every time he asked me a question and waited for him to leave. normally i would have been very worried about being rude or whatever, but i'm just too tired.