of mice and ladies

the last time i left the house was two weeks ago, because i thought i had a therapy appointment, but actually my therapist had texted me saying we had to have a different schedule this year, but i missed it. so, since i went through the trouble of getting dressed and all, i did some grocery shopping. it was nice because i felt like a real person for once, but i almost had a meltdown in target because they didn't have apple jelly. it was a straw and camel sort of thing. i eventually found the jelly but i haven't made anything with it in a while because a mouse lives in our kitchen and has been getting into the bread. it's honey wheat, so it's not like i can be mad. i can't bring myself to eat the bread though so tomorrow i'm buying a plastic bread box thing.

i don't much mind having a mouse. i'm worried that it will chew through something i need or poop on something i like, but that's about it. i used to keep rats as pets, which is good because i'm not afraid of the mouse, but bad because it limits my options. my mom said we should buy rat poison, but to me, that's like poisoning a dog, plus i don't want to deal with a mouse corpse hidden in an unknown location. i tried to find one of those humane cages so we could set it free in the wild, or the homes of my enemies, but i never did find any, and i bet they're expensive anyway. i wonder if anyone rents out cats?

i'm really enjoying not having anything to do. i wake up in the mornings and have breakfast and watch tv, and then i spend the day browsing the internet, watching netflix, and playing the sims. i have a snack in the middle of the day and at night my mom comes home and we have dinner. i say "we", but i eat in my room and she eats in hers. i go to bed around 2 or 3, or earlier if i get sleepy before then. sometimes i feel sad but now it's okay since i can just cry it out and then take a nap. it's really very nice. and i'm not sick anymore, but while i was sick, i decided to fix my sleep schedule finally. i could only sleep if i'd taken nyquil anyway, so i just started taking it at a normal time so i'd wake up naturally around 8 or 9 am.

so, even though there's no forward motion, i think i'm happy for now.