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today i woke up around 1 pm and i was hungry but i wasn't sure what i wanted to eat so i decided to go out and run errands and see if anything occurred to me.

the first place i went was the psych services center. mostly i wanted to see if there were any support groups this semester, but there aren't. the other reason is kind of complicated. i talked about starting medication before but i never got past doing research to find a clinic to go to. yesterday night i decided i should go to the clinic i found today and see what was what. but when i checked their website again, it mentioned that you need a referral from your regular doctor in order to see a psychiatrist. i don't have a regular doctor though. then i remembered that when i was last in therapy i had talked about going on meds and my therapist said she could get me a referral from her supervisor. i never went through with that though. so i went to the psych services center to ask if i could still get a referral even though i'm not a client there anymore. the receptionist - i don't know what to call her job but she was the lady who i talked to about paying for therapy sessions - was really nice and suggested that i email my therapist about it since she still works there. so i have to do that later. i hate emailing people because i never know what to say and i'm bad at reading tone. oh well, she will just have to understand.
the annoying thing was when i started explaining my situation to the receptionist, some dude in the waiting room interrupted me twice to suggest i go to some clinic and recited the phone number for me. my favorite thing to do when men do this is to look at them for a moment and then go back to what i was saying as though they hadn't spoken. this is super rude but so is interrupting a stranger who is talking about private medical issues with a mental health care professional. whatever.

after that i went to the store and they had honeycrisp apples! it was great. i'm not sure the ones they had are all the way ripe yet but i will find out soon. i'm so excited. i might see the person i like on thursday and i'm going to bring him an apple since the last time i mentioned honeycrisp apples to him his reaction was polite curiosity. and then he was amused at how enthusiastic i was - i think he finds it funny how excited i am about nearly everything. but it's easy to be happy around someone you like. maybe he'll fall in love with my enthusiasm and then also with me. you never know.