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yesterday i went out to karaoke with my best friend. a lady i used to be friends with was there and she came up to me and talked to me and was very friendly. but the reason i don't consider her a friend is because she's the kind of person who thinks she's better than everyone else and that things about her matter more than things about other people. (it's hard to articulate that last part, but basically, she expects other people to remember things about her, like what her job is, but doesn't bother remembering what anyone else does for a living, because it doesn't matter to her.) i've always had the impression that she expects me to be grateful to be friends with her, but a while ago i decided to not spend one minute more than necessary with anyone who makes me feel bad about myself, so i don't bother with her much anymore. here is another interesting thing about this person: it was very difficult for me to recognize her. i'm very bad with faces, and she got a breast reduction and changed her hair color. (do you want to guess how long it took for me to figure out that "reduction" and "augmentation" are not synonyms? i don't know what happened with that.) i wouldn't have known her except for her glasses and the fact that she had to introduce herself to my friend. it made me wonder how many people i used to have some strong feeling or other about are wandering around right in front of me, with different haircuts or more/less weight or added/lost glasses, so i'll never know who they are. that's a weird feeling.
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